My favourite feelings!

Thank you, Phil Lester, for making me discover an incredibly talented person; today's SOTD is Cornelia - Cruising. And if I'm being absolutely honest, this song is golden. What I like the most about this piece (apart from the fab voice of the singer!) is the lyrics. I could tattoo some bits, feeling them, just saying. So yes, thanks a lot, Phil. Twitter really is a cool thing!

Now, can I just do something typically Polish and complain? What is this summer even about? I mean, two days ago it was hot, like, 30C-35C hot. And now it's 20C, BUT windy as heck and it's raining every twenty minutes. I'm feeling so cooooold. I mean, I wasn't particularly enjoying the heat but come on, weather, you can't just change like that! If the temperature dropped to like 20C AND it wasn't raining, I wouldn't say anything, no complaining, promise. Well, you can't have everything in life, can you? 

Now, coming to the real point of this blog post, a while ago I saw this video and yesterday the lovely AmaniLyrical reminded me of the tag I'm just about to do. And namely, it's, guessing by the title and the picture, My favourite feelings tag. As everyone lists fifteen of them, I'll do the same. I think it's important to take some time and think about the little things that make me happy, for if I recognize them, I may use this knowledge to my advantage in the future once having a bad day(not at all every second day, naah). Let's go! 

1. When my kitty comes up to me in the morning and starts purring. I freaking love cats, so when my little bundle of joy (yes, I just called my cat a bundle of joy) decides he wants to spend some time with me, I'm the happiest. You see, it's not that easy with him, he'd much rather bite my ankles than purr and be a little loving creature. But I love him anyway.

2. When my favourite song comes on, I'm like: 

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And when you're around me when that happens, run, I warn you, run, cause crazy things are about to take place. I can't sing, I can't dance and I look like I'm having a stroke, but I don't care. When it's my jam, it's my jam and some wild dancing and singing will occur. You don't necessarily want to be anywhere near me. Oh, Uma Thurman's playing and I'm like! (sorry for copy pasting these memes but they really match it all so perfectly!)

3. When my makeup is on point! I've been doing my makeup, let's call it more seriously, for three years now and it's still a miracle when I don't stab myself in the eyeball with my mascara, so when everything goes right, I'm freaking ecstatic! 

4. Are these feelings or moments? Well, anyway, number four is the evening after a very tiring day when I can watch the sunset, talk to people, check tumblr, twitter, do the little things I love without feeling guilty of wasting loads of time. 

5. Getting a good grade. I'm almost over with uni now, but during these three years I studied a freaking lot, so being somehow rewarded is a fantastic feeling.

This is my Russian finals grade; five is the best you can get, feeling pretty proud. 

6. When I study English/ Russian/ whatever and I finally understand what's the exact point of the thing that absorbs me. The Oh I get it now moment when suddenly everything clicks and I'm like:

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7. When I receive letters or beautiful gift cards from the people I love. Me and my best friend have this thing that we write each other letters and later on we exchange them. I love handwriting so yes, that's a cool feeling. 

8. When I bake a cake and it turns out delicious! This one in the picture was made according to Tanya Burr's recipe and oh boy, was it tasty!

9. When I find a person who understands my weird sense of humour and then we're having all the bants together! Always having bants, the only thing worth having. 

10. When I buy a new candle, then burn it and then the whole room smells lovely. 

11. When I get some vintage, unique items of jewellery I feel so original. Kinda like this feeling. I got the one with amber from my grandma and it's about 15 years older than me which I find very cool, personally. 

12. When someone tells me they enjoy my insta/ tumblr/ twitter/ blog. Thank you, I love this feeling. This is lovely, I mean, to know that somebody likes what I write or the photos I take. Yes, please. <3

13. When you wait so long for your favourite band's new album and it's finally released. It happened to me a while ago when I first listened to Drones by Muse and Younger Dreams by Our Last Night. Don't you ever leave me, feeling. <3

14. When I can sleep as long as I need to and I don't have to wake up at 4:30 am. Thanks second year at uni.

15. And last but not least, some youtubers/ musicians favourite my tweet, reply to my comments!

Well, that was fun, I hope you'll find it as entertaining as I do. I'm defending my dissertation tomorrow, so I'll definitely let you know how it went. I'm really scared cause oral exams/ giving speeches are this very thing I hate the most in the world but everyone says it's the formal thing to do so I hope they're right! Also, feel free to do this tag, and once you do, make sure you let me know cause that would be lovely to get to know you better. :)

Stay beautiful,
Kasia xx

Eight photos of happiness.

How is your day going, guys? Good? I hope so! Today's song of the day is... The Weekend - Can't Feel My Face. It is the greatest one, I've heard it while listening to Dan and Phil's BBC radio programme and fell for it totally. You're welcome.

Soo, what happened today was a little research about stuff that I care about made me really down for a while. Like, I really, really, really care about it, will I ever afford the thing? I was so angry and down for a little while but then I went like: come on, you'll work hard, things will be fine. Just believe in yourself and you're halfway there.

And then I found a 8 Photos of Happiness tag on this lovely blog and I thought it was about time I did something like that, especially now when I am about to defend my dissertation, getting stressed again. So, here they are - eight photos of happiness in my life. They are not in any particular order to be honest. And I won't include people. I want these to be things, moments, because I'd have to include too many precious human beings (hahaha, okay, don't even lie about it, you've got like maybe one friend total).

1. Travelling! Okay, I don't travel as much as I should be, but it's actually money related. However, there are some things planned and I will be travelling, oh yes. :)

2. Sunsets and sunrises. This one's a sunset, can't really decide which ones I like better, sunrises are beautiful because it's really early and you can feel the fresh morning air and it's the new day that has just started, but there is something adorable about sunsets as well. I'll go with both, they're just as beautiful. 

3. Cats. They're such lovely fluffy creatures. When my cat comes up to me and purr my heart just melts into a huge puddle full of love for him. 

4. Makeup. I'm a girl, I like makeup. It gives you a great possibility to change your looks, to create certain image you want to show the world. Why not? 

5. Coffee! This Starbucks was great. I love coffee, I think my veins don't actually pump blood but caffeine if I'm being honest. 

6. Walking with friends. Adorable moment, Warsaw walk with Izzy. It's cool to chill, to see beautiful places you've never been to.

7. Beautiful giftcards. I got this one from a friend of mine and it's inspiring and basic and I am a huge fan of basic, simple things. It's the quote and beautiful work that matters, not fireworks going on. Though, I am thinking that I like glittery stuff as well. Oh God, my whole life is a lieeeeeee. 

8. Black and white photography of peaceful places. This one's a bridge I like. The picture is moody, just the way I like it.

So, I guess eight pictures is not too many, I mean, I could post many many more. That's good! I can see my life is not that miserable as I considered it to be if I could easily list more than eight pictures that make me feel happy, way to go!
Good news - my sister's working on my header and social media icons, so my blog will look pretty very soon, look forward to that. This post was so much fun, yay. I am so enjoying blogging. Staying here forever. Until the next time, beautiful people of the Internet! :)

xoxo,

Kasia

Dreams, decisions, instagram posts.

Hey there! I'm currently obsessed with AlunaGeorge - Attracting Flies, so let that one be an official song of the day on my blog cause it's brilliant. I'm leaving this to be a real thing on here. A song of the day each time I post something.

Soo, starting the very point of this blog post - my dreams are huge. I cannot even think about them without getting slightly too scared. Here's the thing - in my mind I feel like I so deserve to have great things going on in my life, I just do. But as a person who's been constantly put down by the others, I've lost all my confidence and as much as I know I DESERVE good moments, I am also too scared and self conscious to actually believe I'm gonna achieve something in life. It's not the hard work and the things I'd have to give up for the time being that I am so afraid of, hell no, I am really willing to work hard. It's the important decisions like whether to do a master's degree (and waste another two years of my life as well) or just give it up and stay with my bachelor's degree. Let's face it, I don't really think a master's degree in English-Russian applied linguistics will be something crucial in England and that is really where I want to be eventually.

I also don't feel the idea of being patriotic and staying in Poland. It's not the typical Polish situation here either. The truth is I am going to the UK this summer to make money, yes. But I am not a stereotypical Polish person who lives and works in England, sending all the money they make there to Poland, getting benefits in England and in Poland at the same time, not having any bloody idea what English is. I do know the English language. I know how to talk, I've always loved English, it's been my favourite subject ever since I started school. I love the ability of reading books or watching films without needing the translation. It's also cool to know what all the songs are about, helpfulhelpful. So I do speak English pretty well if you ask me, British youtubers helped me quite a lot, too. But anyway, I reckon this master's degree I am supposed to be doing is not really something essential. Besides, the main thing that uni did for me was giving me more anxiety and making me feel more and more depressed. I'm not even joking, applied linguistics is a really demanding faculty. I know thanks to having studied this one I'm kind of fluent in two languages, but still. Knowing how bad all this makes me feel, why would I even do it to myself, consciously? I mean, let's see how my English summer is and then it's decision time. But for now I don't really wanna force myself into doing this master's degree. I feel like it's gonna be a waste of time I could be already spending doing something that makes me closer to fulfilling my dreams.

And what are these exactly? I just want to be happy. Oh yes, what a cliché. But really, that's all I want. The things that make me happy are taking pictures, writing this, experimenting with my looks (thinking about dyeing my hair darker again, actually!), watching youtube videos. Why not create my own channel? It could be so much fun. I truly see how all my favourite people of youtube grow as a person (I mean, not as a one person obv :D). Plus, they've helped me so much, I wish I could have such influence on somebody's mood. I have things to say, I love photography. Let's see where it's heading. I don't wanna miss out on opportunities and I definitely do not want to force myself into doing anything I don't feel like doing. It's my life and I've spent the most of it pleasing others and feeling more and more anxious. Getting so shy. I want to open up, I want to feel good. Let's see how it goes, let's try, shall we?

Oh wow, it's been quite a rambly, long blog post, hasn't it? I feel like a yt video would've been a lot longer though, I'm really in a mood, I could talk and talk and talk, I'm so feeling this topic, I will actually consider having my youtube channel later. Soo, let's just end this post with some Instagram pictures I took. I edited them with VSCO filters. I hope you've enjoyed reading that. If you have (or not), please, leave a comment. Do you have any important decisions to make? Do you feel like it's time to change some things in your life? Let me know and see you next time! Bye! :)

Warsaw picture, enjoying walking around the Palace of Culture and Science in Warsaw with Izzy. :)

Another Warsaw picture, Izzy's favourite spot. I loved it pretty much, too, if you ask me. 

Bydgoszcz, by the Brda river, next to the best spot in the whole city - Mill Island. 

My bro is the best bro in the world cause he made this juice for me, love you! This one's nectarine, apple, banana and grapefruit. Yumm!

At my grandma's, I love photographing flowers. 

Herrrbs, salvia. A cool plant to take pictures of. 

Kind of summerish make up of the day!

OHAI there! Looks like this is gonna be the very first proper blog post, yay! I'm slightly too excited for that because this is just showing my motd, no big deal. It's not gonna be a tutorial of any sort but it is like a little step-by-step blog post, let's see where it goes. 

I have to start with the fact that I'm still not feeling very comfortable about showing my face without any foundation or concealer on. I mean, as I am home in my little countryside family house, I don't mind it all that much and I'm surely not gonna do my makeup to then clean the house wearing it. But on the Internet it's a different story. Everyone's striving to be perfect nowadays. And if you're not perfect naturally and you try to cover your blemishes/ flaws with makeup, you might as well be called fake. I saw a very inspirational youtube video about it today. Basically, this bit is about acne (which I don't really have, these spots on my face are my fault as I nervously squeeze them and then scratch them but shhhush, I'm working on getting rid of this "habit"!) and about how people comment on people with skin problems. What is more, when they put makeup on, they're being accused of using too much of it and are called fake. I strongly disapprove of such behaviour. I was always laughed at because of my weight and I know how this influences one's confidence, but feeling worthless will surely be included in a separate blog post as this is one of these important matters I definitely feel like discussing later on. What I want to say now is that we're all beautiful in our own special way, no matter how cheesy/ cliché it souds. Be yourself and be as beautiful as you are! Now, enough chatter, let's get on with this makeup look. 

What you see first is, as mentioned, my face without any products on and then it's the picture in which I'm after putting on my foundation (a mix of Rimmel Lasting Finish 25H in Light Porcelain and Rimmel Stay Matte in Light Ivory) and powder which is a Polish brand (Wibo Fixing Powder) and I don't think you can get it anywhere, but it's basically a loose powder and it's really good so yeah. Oh, and by the way, I've run out of concealer so I'm currently using my Stay Matte foundation as it's a but thicker than the other one I have. I'm actually pleased with the effect. 

Then it's time for my cheeks and eyebrows. For the former, I used the I <3 Makeup Summer of Love bronzer and I am so in love with it. Honestly, this shimmery effect is perfect for summer. At least something on me is kind of bronze. I am literally the palest person on Earth I guess. And this bronzer's packing, my gosh is it beautiful! Anyway, moving on to my eyebrows, I used my Maybelline Color Tattoo in Permanent Taupe. This is my favourite thing to fill my eyebrows with, I barely use this product as an eyeshadow, it's mainly for my eyebrows because I just adore this cool tone it gives. Oh, and I do apologize, in these pictures, probably cause of the lighting, my eyebrows look uneven, but they are equally dark! :)

Then it's the fun part - eyeshadows! I used my Makeup Revolution Iconic 3 palette (so in love with this one, honestly!) and my Technic Brights - the pink one is from this beauty; the rest, meaning all the bronze and shimmery shades, is from Iconic 3.  

And then, to finish this look and to add some more summerish vibes, it's lipstick time! This particular one is definitely among my favourites - Maybelline Color Whipser in Who Wore It Red-er. I just love it how soft this one is. Plus, this shade is absolutely gorgeous. It is, in fact, not really red but rich pink I'd say, but that's the perfect summerish colour. I'm so in love with how my lips look in these pictures! 

Oh, and the eyebrows again, I know they look kinda bald but they were okay, you gotta trust me on that one. :)) Also, my nose piercing area is kind of reddish but it's because of the fact I had my nose pierced around one and half months ago, so despite the fact it's almost completely healed I don't really wanna apply any products there yet.

Okay, let's take a moment and appreciate how gorgeous my lips are one last time, because why not? :)  

I have to say I'm really pleased with the overall effect. My lips look nice, the eyes are subtle and summerish, my bronzer looks SO summertime appropriate as well. Let's leave you with this happy little moment. See you guys later, thanks a bunch for reading, stay tuned as there will be more posts coming soon, byeee! :)